Notes From Underground - Fyodor Dostoevsky MK Publications indir

Every he has reminiscences which he would not tel to anybody, but only to his friends. He has other maters in his mind which he would not reveal even to his friends, but only to himself, and that in secret. But there are other stuffs which a he is afraid to tel even to himself, and every decent he has a total of such stuffs stored away in his mind. The more decent he is, the greater the total of such stuffs in his mind. Anyway, I have only lately determined to remember some of my early trips. Til now I have always avoided them, even with a certain uneasines. Now, when I am not only recaling them, but have actualy decided to write an acount of them, I want to try the experiment whether one can, even with oneself, be perfectly open and not take eyesore at the whole precision. I wil observe, in excursións, that Heine says that a true self-portrayal is almost an imposibility, and that he is bound to lie about himself.